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Aku akan menulis banyak kesan tentang alur cerita bersamamu  

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Menyusun kalimat tak terhingga setiap waktu bersamamu

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Aku berjanji menyimpan setiap detik di sela jemariku  

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Aku mengabadikan "kita" dalam syair yang tak lekang oleh waktu  

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Setiap bait menggambarkan perjalanan cinta yang abadi tak berdebu

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Kutitipkan cinta ini dalam setiap tinta yang tercurah karena rasa rindu

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Dan aku akan terus menulis, karena di sini, cintaku terasa sempurna hakikat bersamamu

Stories of Infinity: Embroidering the Meaning Behind Moving up and Moving on

For the first time, I felt true sincerity after wading through the ocean that was steep with waves. I was brave and could make it to the shore. In wading, I was knocked down, but it didn't break my spirit to keep heading to the beautiful and peaceful white sand. That is the essence of life that I have passed through. The sincerity that I truly felt was when I was given trials by God. God gives the ordeal of separation, which many of God's creatures, including me, do not want to feel separation in different lives. The world and the next world. It can be called death as a trial for God's creatures to remain patient and aware of God's decree. To continue living and realize that life in this world is only transient. Perfection and decree and eternal life are only in the hereafter.

Life is steep; that is the world. Life is full of coercion; that is the world. The nature of the world is only brief. So, it needs to be utilized as well as possible.  Whenever our hearts are troubled, as God's creatures, we surrender and ask God for help. Ask to be a good person for ourselves for our family, and for the community. When we fall, it is indeed very painful—especially facing an age that is getting older, like at the age of this quarter-life crisis and being made aware of the full reality of the harsh world. Practicing and trying to look good in front of many people and being mature is the best choice. However, there is no point in pretending to look good. There are times when admitting to the public and the surrounding environment that this self is not okay. So, that people don't trivialize much, even arbitrarily, to ourselves. It must be sharpened again to be stronger in undergoing the steep gravel that will be passed by after the swish of fine sand on the beach.

Being an ambivert is the choice of most people. However, in today's developmentally-driven world, many people feel insecure, which leads to introverted personalities. Being an extrovert can have many advantages in terms of quickly communicating and building many relationships. However, to find security in building privileges. Being an ambivert is the solution. It can be balanced in such a way. When it is known that according to many views and events in the perspective of being an introverted person is only detrimental because, in this era of life crisis, development is increasingly advanced from establishing relationships. They don't even care when introverts feel insecure. What needs to be addressed is. Do not corner yourself and feel that you are not good. Being a person who dares to get up and move forward is the main way to achieve success. This effervescent article contains the wandering of the mind at night, which is increasingly lulling to contemplate and think. Feeling sincerity and being able to make peace with the noisy head is one form of self-awareness and awakening. To be able to live life, because all things that have happened are how to continue living in the future. The essence is only yourself who will win the victory because life is to rise and continue all the essence of the commandments and God of the universe of life and nature.

Reading Corner in the interior and corner of Gebangarum village by KKN group of Sultan Agung Islamic University Semarang.

Reading is a verb form in which the process is to see a writing or series of letters arranged neatly and patterned. The reading is divided into two, namely: reading aloud and reading silently. Reading aloud can be called reading in public or reading out loud. Meanwhile, reading silently is reading carefully; mostly, this method is done to be able to better understand and understand the purpose and purpose of a reading that is read. Reading is one of the methods of language. Because by reading you can get new information and also new vocabulary. Reading activities can be started from a young age, which starts with learning to recognize letters and then spelling and composing words. As in the context of learning and teaching at home or outside the home, such as school or an adequate environment. What must be developed so that reading becomes a global lantern of life starts from an environment that likes to read. Recently there has been a routine from the Semarang Islamic campus, UNNISULA, which organizes KKN or Real Work for all 6th-semester students. The work program they do is the Reading Corner which is carried out for students and also residents of the surrounding environment.

This activity is in the form of reading together, sharing knowledge, and also holding some fun games in the theme of reading activities. It was held in Gebangarum village, Demak, Central Java. 4 KKN groups contributed to this village. (02/02) On the third day, they filled the activities with a variety of activities that were enough to make the reading corner or library corner crowded. There is no fatigue because they are happy to be able to teach knowledge directly in the field. They are starting by meeting with the children of grade 1 students of MI Riyadhotus Syubban, which is very interesting and joyful. The lack of teaching aids is not an obstacle for them in the procession of teaching and learning in the reading corner. If you are interested in participating in volunteer service as in this real work activity, you are very welcome. Because the corners of rural villages need competent and insightful teachers, this makes real work activities an alternative to contributing knowledge for students. In this activity, namely the reading corner, a mobile library is also implemented; their program is exceeded so that students can increase their interest in reading and creativity by providing pictures of storybook books and making picture collages while directing and having fun.

Reading creativity must be cultivated from an early age. This event was a success because of the enthusiasm of the children, who were very excited about making our object a book lover. If you want to go deeper, here are some things to know when undergoing KKN where we must be balanced in carrying out work programs, including always being alert in activities, being able to synchronize personality or professionalism, and being able to be mentally and physically, of course. The following things may be trivial but are of great value to the residents who are the target of the activity. The reading corner seems to be growing rapidly, said Sukna Fiddini, one of the participants or student organizers of KKN in Gebangarum village. Because of the enthusiasm of those who are tireless and very friendly in participating in activities, this reading corner project has become the number 2 most favorite proker reference by residents. Make sure if you want to participate in this activity; you must survey the location to be addressed first to synchronize the area and also the community environment. Make sure you are also really solemn and sincere in carrying out the mandate of the agency. Of course, it is beneficial for now and in the future.

The Occurrence of Many Controversial Religious Deviations in the Al-Zaytun Islamic Boarding School, Indramayu

Religion is referred to as a system that regulates beliefs and worship of God as well as rules related to customs, and a worldview that connects humans to the order of life, spiritually.  The practice of religion can be influenced by local customs. From time to time such as the entry of Islam into the country of Indonesia originating from the East through socialization or da'wah trade raises religion it is something that gradually maintains its faith in a belief.  The number of religions that may have organized behavior, especially in the body and soul of the Indonesian homeland makes its diversity. But who knows the majority of religion in Indonesia is Islam which in Islam in Indonesia prioritizes the presence of Ahlu Sunnah Wal Jama'ah which codifies the procedures of the Sunnah Rosul in order not to be misunderstood. This is guided directly by many scholars such as MUI and NU organizations. 

K.H. Hasyim Asy'ari is a homeland figure who founded the NU (Nahdatul Ulama) organization on December 31, 1926. NU is the largest Islamic organization in Indonesia. NU has played an important role in shaping Muslim identity in the country with tolerant teachings. Nahdatul itself means 'rise' or 'move', while Ulama means scholars or religious leaders. In this case, the meaning of Nahdatul Ulama is 'Awakening of the Ulama'. Over time NU has become a spark and foundation for Islam in Indonesia. Of course, other organizations accompany it as well, namely Muhammadiyah, which is not much different from the organization's belief system in Indonesia. However, who would have thought that there are still many other deviant organizations that do not obey Ahlu Sunnah Wal jamaah? As is rampant and the trend in the new era is the deviation in the boarding school in Indramayu, Al Zaytun. 

It is known that Al Zaytun is one of the boarding schools led by Panji Gumilang, a religious figure who is directly involved in the education and education of students at the Al Zaytun boarding school. The rise of worship procedures that look strange comes from their official Channel Youtube and also several lectures from leaders who are considered irrational. Resulting in a lot of controversy over heretical teachings in the education of students at the boarding school. The return of students was simultaneous because many parents of students were afraid of the heretical teachings taught by them. The wonder is that this college has been running for a long time.

Deviant issues in Al Zaytun boarding school include:

1. The permissibility of Zina; This was reported from one of the leader's lectures on their youtube channel.

2. Mixing the rows or shaf of congregational prayer between men and women. Whereas this is very contrary to the teachings of Islamic law, except for the difference in shaf

3. The existence of mixed worship when someone who is Christian follows the prayer line with different worship.

4. And the existence of their songs and marches that are known and considered as greetings to Jews.

And many more.

However, the government has not executed the case of religious deviation. Reporting from the college's website Al Zaytun can also be read. As a result, parents who intend to send their children to school to focus on gaining knowledge and also worship become unfocused and even anxious about the teachings explained and given to the students. The importance of re-examining boarding schools based on Ahlu Sunnah Wal Jamaah is a criterion for education that is more qualified spiritually religious. The recommendation for Islamic boarding schools that are qualified in Islamic religious worship is the East Java region such as; Lirboyo, Tebu Ireng, Al Anwar Sarang, and Gontor.

Prioritizing The Interests of The Hereafter for Eternal Happiness

Knowledge in life is something that we need to prioritize. Being a good person, easy to interact with, making a positive environment, and causing things to be happy when seen by many points of view is a person's authority. There are not many people who try to be authoritative but do not know the essence. One's authority is to be recognized, not acknowledged. The same goes for intelligence and intelligence. The intelligence possessed by a scientist is also present because of hard work and the intended results of efforts so far. Which makes the element of persistence the background and even the foundation of a path to success.

Inayatul Mustautina 

The ephemeral nature of this world makes people neglect the importance of learning the knowledge of the akhirah first. What is required and emphasized is the akhirah rather than the world which is certainly a forgetfulness, misery and only temporary

Any kind of her life. That inspired me. She was really kind and very good at building a personality like to get ridha Allah first for akhirah knowledge. Getting any kind of experience such as like; 

• Motivation to take the bachelor's degree in Quranic Science and Tafsir (IAT) and the master's degree in Quranic and Hadith Studies (SQH) Jakarta. 

Since childhood, she likes to study Islamic knowledge, especially in studying the Quran. Because of that, she decided to go to an Islamic boarding school. there she met a woman who had memorized 30 chapters of the Quran. She was very impressed with her, so she motivated her to study the Quran more deeply. To support this, she decided to take a bachelor's and master's degree in the field of the Quran.

• Best achievement of her

She got the Cumalude predicate and became the best and fastest graduate with the Masters's Degree at Uin Sunan Kalijaga, Yogyakarta

• About current daily activity

After graduating with a master's degree, she was busy working and deepening her academic skills. And now, after getting married she was hectic teaching the Quran and taking care of the household, exploring new skills and deepening them, such as cooking, etc.

• Because she looks hectic, then doesn't forget to spend her vacation

One of her hobbies is traveling. She likes spending her time off with her family of the many trips she has been on, the staycation on Tidung Island, the Thousand Islands, and Jakarta, is the best. Because now, she is living in Jakarta

• Well, an Anniversary. Busy people often forget anniversaries if they don't set an alarm. She likes to make some special moments or celebrate.

She was a married lady who appreciates and is grateful for the good things that she gets in life, even if it looks like a small thing. so in her opinion, celebrating a birthday or achieving something is important, so that she can move better, be more passionate, and be more grateful. And to remember, that celebrating something doesn't have to be luxurious and useless, but useful, for example giving alms, eating with family, or buying something needed.

That's all any kind we should and we take an important thing from her experience.

Being Bad at Trying, Being Good Later with No Crying

The sound of running from the outside of the gate school began to be heard, the heartbeat that was getting sharper and sharper was felt loudly. I am "Dhea" who was ready with a white t-shirt while justifying the flag with the others, turned our heads to see that there were still many friends of ours who had not entered the ceremony field. Today is Monday. Of course, it is a routine day for public schools to carry out a flag-raising ceremony before the start of classes. As usual, we started at 6.55 am until 8.00 am. But, there are still many friends and other students who are late. 

"Ting Ting Ting"... The sound of hitting a bell was increasingly heard which was broadcasted directly by the school guard. So that, students who were still at the gate immediately entered the field or school area. My obligation today is to be the flag bearer accompanied by my two friends; Raka and Rama. Raka on my right and Rama on my left. It was exactly 6.55 am. Because there was already a master of ceremonies who was also ready to coach today's ceremony. Mrs. Irma will be the master of ceremonies today with her elegance and friendliness appearing to shine a blushing smile on both cheeks. The master of ceremonies also commanded swiftly and firmly. After the sequence of the flag ceremony was read by the master of ceremonies, it was time to raise the flag. I feel nervous but of course, this is not the first time I get, the obligation of being a flag bearer every 1 month. Suddenly have thrown so that my 2 relatives and friends are ready to follow my instructions. While raising the flag, the "Indonesia Raya" song was sung by the choir group. In about 5 minutes we finished raising the flag. The host also read out the next series of agenda

Exactly at 7.45 a.m., the master of ceremonies made an announcement and gave some advice and motivation to all of us. In between Mrs. Irma explained the importance of us as citizens to learn writing, by not abbreviating words that are not appropriate. Because we are already in high school and soon we will be faced with entering university exams. Mrs. Irma explained that there was an important announcement about English literature lessons. Because in my school there are several majors such as language that embrace English literature. Mrs. Irma announced that there would be a district-level poetry competition and then several writing competitions. Raka, who was standing next to me, grabbed my hand and said, "Hurry up and register for the competition, I'm sure for you, you can do it and it's already your specialty in literature!" 

I was shocked and whispered, "No, ain't small enough to join the competition". 

With side eyes that seemed unreceptive and disappointed, Raka glanced at me disappointedly. After the announcement was made during the ceremony, we hurriedly tidy up our equipment and entered our respective classes. Before entering the class I stood at the bulletin board while looking at the announcement. 

"Puk" someone tapped my shoulder with a sweet smile and it was Mrs. Irma. "Are you interested Dhea? I can't wait to see your beautiful work". 

I smiled embarrassedly and changed the subject. "Oh. Hello madam! What are we going to discuss today in literature class?". 

Mrs. Irma smiled and took me by the shoulder and we entered the literature class in the morning.

We entered the literature classroom together and I immediately took over my seat in row number 2. "Assalamualaikum everyone! How are you, everyone?" And so, the class began. Today we discussed writing in poetry and dissected several poems from authors such as Sapardi Djoko Damono's  "Hujan di Bulan Juni". At the end of the class session, Mrs. Irma discussed the competition in literature class.

 "I'm looking forward to your beautiful works and you should immediately determine and register for the writing competition" Suddenly, Mrs. Irma approached my desk before leaving the class. "Dhea, when the break bell rings, follow me into the office". I was stunned while saying "Yes madam". I thought to myself as I put my books and school supplies into the classroom and went down the stairs, "What did Ms. Irma want to talk to me about?" I was always wondering.

Arriving at the office, I knocked on the door and went straight to Mrs. Irma's desk. "Excuse me, madam, what is it that you called me?"  I asked when I was sitting in front of Mrs. Irma's desk. Mrs. Irma smiled and gave me a piece of paper. "This is your writing, isn't it? The title is very interesting "When I am fragile, there I must go on". Can I send your work for the competition?" I was shocked and immediately looked at the contents of my writing. "Sorry, Madam but this is just my writing when I was feeling upset and restless, and I accidentally collected it into a midterm writing assignment yesterday, because I was confused about what to write. So I just thought of the existing ones". Mrs. Irma smiled again and directed me to send my work, "If you don't mind, I will help you send your work to be published later, the problem of winning or losing, I have seen your writing is so good". I was silent while lamenting and in my heart said "Is it possible. How could it be?". And finally I said "Yes" to Mrs. Irma's request and direction. "Okay madam, it's okay if you just send me as a sample school representative in the Literature department". Mrs. Irma also smiled and said, "Okay, I will help you process so that your work can be published and become a representative of our school". We both smiled and shook hands

While started entering the classroom again for the next lesson because the break time was over.

2 weeks have passed since Mrs. Irma suggested that I joined the writing competition. But on this Thursday, Mrs. Irma did not appear at school. I didn't know where she was, so I wanted to ask other teachers but was embarrassed. Because I was afraid of being asked a lot about sending my work yesterday. "Drudug drug-drug" The noise of my class was heard to outside of the classroom. It must be, because my classmates were banging on the table while singing. I entered the class and sat next to my friend Fitri. "Where have you been Dhea?" Fitri asked. "I was looking for Mrs. Irma, she hasn't been seen at school lately". Fitri turned to me with a confused look on her face. "Didn't you know that Mrs. Irma is sick?". I was immediately surprised and grabbed both of Fitri's shoulders. "Really? Why didn't you tell me?". "I thought you already knew". Fitri made a confused face as she said. "How about we visit her later?  Let's go to her house." I immediately said yes. "Ting ting" the school bell rang, signaling today's homecoming. Fitri and I hurriedly rode our bikes to Mrs. Irma's house. Arriving there we found her house deserted and seemingly devoid of people. "How is it Fit, there doesn't seem to be anyone. The doors and windows are closed." Fitri, who had been knocking on Mrs. Irma's door, said. "Is she in the hospital?" "Could be", I thought. "How about we go back tomorrow and let's ask the teacher at school too". Invited Fitri. "Alright, we'll try again tomorrow".

As we rode our bicycles home, we couldn't help but notice the rain. Fitri and I hurriedly accelerated our pace and finally, we arrived at our respective homes. Because our houses were neighbors and close. The next day. Arriving at school, I saw Mrs. Irma with my friends in the front yard of the school library. I immediately parked my bike and hurried to Mrs. Irma. Mrs. Irma smiled to see me in a group of friends who were blocking my face. "Dhea, come here. Everyone else please go to class. I have something to discuss with Dhea". "Yes madam," said my friends. Mrs. Irma handed me an award slip and said "Congratulations Dhea, you came third in the writing competition yesterday. I'm sorry I didn't have time to tell you this good news because I wasn't feeling well". I smiled happily and immediately hugged Mrs. Irma and shook her hand. "Thank you Madam for your help, even though my work yesterday was just a whim". "Congratulations also your work deserves to be published, it's okay you are not number 1 but remember you have dared to give your work you are already great and you have taken your time to write". Mrs. Irma said while holding my hand proudly.

Mrs. Irma: "Then how are you doing? Yesterday I heard you were sick". I asked while worried. "I'm fine. Yesterday, I just went for a walk and I got news from a neighbor that there were two students using bicycles knocking on my house all the time. It must be you?" 

Me (Dhea): "Yea, it was me and Fitri, because we were worried and I also questioned the results of the competition collection". 

Mrs. Irma: "Thank you for worrying about me, but I'm really fine. It's just that my stomach acid is rising. And I need enough rest."

Me: "Okey madam, get well soon, and thank you so much for supporting me". 

Mrs. Irma: "Thank you also for representing our school Dhea. I'm sure your work and your hobby in literature will flourish soon". 

We smiled and looked at each other proudly. Then I walked up the stairs to my class and Mrs. Irma walked to the teacher's office.

I am so glad! Even though, in this experience, I have not become number 1 at least I have contributed to a work of writing in developing my literature. I am also proud to have made my high school proud. Now I will be even more diligent in writing so that I can also become a famous writer like Asma Nadia or Mr. Sapardi Djoko Damono. Everything experienced in this life requires a process and gradually. I am sure that with the enthusiasm and encouragement of the people I love, I can grow and become a good writer or author later. The soft space of this heart is radiated by a burning spirit. When the heart becomes loud I try not to make it touch instantly. Awakening from an experience makes the first step and foothold of success. I, myself, and my soul can do it and proudly.

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An Eternal Life is Embedded in a Soul That Appreciates The Presence of God

Life is a principle or force that is considered to underlie the distinctive quality of animate beings (Merriam Webster)

Life is about our path to death. Life is about how we explore the nature of purpose. Life is about how we can ride the waves to the shore. Inside is full of transience, inside is full of spears and stabs. It cannot expect the end of life. It cannot escape the essence of sadness and cannot dissolve in the essence of pleasure. The beauty of life is seen in how living beings feel gratitude for being given favors by the Creator, of course, the existence of God, the Almighty of all things in the barrier of life. We are living beings who carry out all the routes directed by God. It cannot be denied that we also live arbitrarily. Everything has been arranged by God as the Creator. 

Turning and turning, moving and being silent, crowded and quiet. The path has been set. Feeling the blessings of gratitude for the world is a form of love from God. Adrift for strong people who appreciate the presence of God can synchronize spirituality and physicality in life. 

(Source of pict: Pinterest Pict)

My story was once a downtrodden girl and I didn't know what to do with my God-given destiny. Directed to the right or left or even forward or backward. Praying is a natural thing that creatures do to ask for the right path in life. Reaching for the beautiful sun and moon that are brightly lit.

At that time, I was tossed around with all the indecision and felt that I didn't deserve to live. Some people accept the story of life, some do not. But over time there is the essence of forgetting the past. Dare to fight and forget it is a barrier to sincerity in continuing life.

Flowers bloom after fertilization, but they can also melt and fall in the period leading to death, which we can call the goal and end of a long wait for life.

From a young age, I was always taught to tell the truth, even the smallest things. My mother always paid special attention to me about the meaning of life. My mother always applies when we meet new people we must be prepared for all their questions about us. Surely their questions will be the source of our own identity. We don't need to hesitate to answer honestly and answer as it is so and with that good habit people will get to know us well and love to socialize. This life is only temporary even briefly. Being useful to fellow creatures of God is a separate goal that we will carry later in the next world. And all of that is full of accountability. Don't let life be wasted. Despite the many calamities or diseases of the heart or body, we must be able to rise to become a person who is loved by creatures and the creator. Because life must be better and life must go on.

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Mencapai Semerbaknya

Kurasa masih ada aroma 

Menerpa bersama angin berkelana 

Hanya saja yang kau bawa itu hampa 

Sehingga mengakibatkan luka 

Aku menjadi permanen topang awan 

Yang kita sadari, ia akan pudar

Terpaannya pun pasti menembus tajam 

Hingga sampai penemuan tak terselamatkan

Aku masih berdiam diri 

Bak elok mawar tanpa duri 

Lagi lagi perlu disadari

Tuk menembus semerbak aromanya yang tak bisa dipungkiri

Harus dilewati dengan penuh kemantapan diri🥀

Mother's Prayer is Great for My Everything

She is the place where I go home, the place where I complain, and the place where I rely on her the most. She looks gorgeous, I guess not very tall for her height, but her personality is very high. She is the kindness one of my life. That day, I felt so nervous, my legs and hands were shaking coldly. The piece of paper containing the summary list of oral exam materials shook. Generally, before I did my oral examination, it was a must for me to call my mom at home (because I stayed at the college boarding school) I love listening to her voice, and she loves to talk too much to me.  

(On the phone) 

Mama: Have you eaten? I ate fried chicken earlier, but I bit my tongue and remembered what you ate there. Did you like the dishes that were served?

I answered. " Of course, mom! I like the dishes here. (Actually, sometimes I didn't like the taste but I just want to say, that she was proud of me)

Alhamdulillah, of course, this is your prayer mom, I feel smooth when answering some questions from the examiner, every time there will be an exam at school, I always ask for prayers and also blessings from my mother. Without her great prayers, I would not have been able to answer the questions from the examiner smoothly. She is my great woman, she's independent, and she was very strong, For her sake, I studied hard. My mom always said "learn as much as you can and bring your learning atmosphere to be relaxed without rushing' she always gave advice that touched my heart. She used to teach me some prayers before studying and I always practiced them. She is also a person who is very occupied with time and even her promises have never slipped. I can't wait to enjoy special dishes from mom's cooking, how she smiles, jokes, and also of course cries proud of my presence. my experience of seeing mom cry is when she cries happily when she is moved when I get a class winner. There are times when I miss when my mother cooks rice, adds flavor to her cooking, and so on. She always calms me down.  After the exam even when in the afternoon, I gave a message her, that I answered the exam from the examiner smoothly, it's all because of her support and so far it's not me who is strong, I wouldn't be able to be as strong as I am now without mom's great prayers.

What's Promise Mean?

Dug dug dug!

The beating of my heart was increasingly in sync with my footsteps. The faster my footsteps tread the earth, the faster the beating. All the new students of Dian Nusantara University were running towards the 6th-floor auditorium of the campus. Some used the elevator and the rest had to climb the emergency stairs. My friend Ajeng and I were among the students who had to climb the stairs to the 6th-floor auditorium. We had to be there on time at 7 am. "Let's walk a little faster if necessary run"! Said the organizing committee of the new student opening ceremony.

"Fyuh, (in my heart) I was already dressed up pretty, I was forced to run fast as if I was being chased by the devil". (I thought to myself because I heard the cheers from the committee who could only give orders). Our seats had been arranged by the committee and determined according to the majors we took. I and my close friend Ajeng majored in English literature, previously we had been acquainted while registering for the first time during a campus visit, the experience of our mouths exchanged reasons, why we were in the middle of the sea of English literature. But unfortunately, our seats during the event were fairly far away. I was in the right corner of the second row and Ajeng was in the left corner of the third row. My hands were shaking, my cold sweat was pouring out, and the beating of my heart that was in sync with my footsteps and she had stopped was increasingly heard. Of course, it was because I was scared and didn't know the people sitting next to me. The woman with two hair ties looked cold without even turning her head who sat right beside me on my left. Even though I wanted to try to get acquainted with her. Because I saw Ajeng she was very friendly and also seemed to have many friends at the right end of the third row. I felt jealous seeing that.

The event began. The rhythmic music of the national anthem and also the campus hymn were the opening for the beginning of the event. Shortly after 2 pm, the event was over. We were allowed to leave the auditorium and before that, there were several announcements for the next day's event. I rushed over to Ajeng who was sitting at the end. But she seemed to ignore me. Previously we had made plans to go home and eat together at Kito's stall near campus. But I think she forgot our plan last night. She seemed to be busy joking with her new friend and missed me and ignored my call. I felt sad and betrayed. Because of course, we had an earlier appointment.

I was transfixed and just watched her walk slowly while chatting with her new friend. My heart was troubled, these tears wanted to fall heavily, but I didn't dare to let them out while wiping them so that I looked okay. Until I didn't realize I couldn't see her back anymore. I stared at that back with my eyes while wiping as I left the auditorium. While sighing. My footsteps are increasingly tracing the classroom hallway. While descending the stairs, I saw her from the height of the glass that was already in front of the campus yard while chatting. My feet stopped and did not want to continue stomping down the stairs. I let her go until she was no longer visible from the campus gate.

Drrrt dddrt..,

My cell phone vibrated. "Where are you?" Ajeng asked through her text message. I ignored her text message and I immediately ordered an online motorcycle to go home. I can't get along with new friends and it all takes a process. I had told Ajeng this before. But all the same, I thought we would become best friends later on campus. It was just the first day of opening that she was already reluctant to turn her head and even ignore our previous plans. I couldn't stem the flow of these tears. My tears kept falling even though I tried to wipe them away. I said I wasn't good at words, but your actions made me stammer. I felt disappointed because of her decision which suddenly made me question. Silence is the key to everything. There is only me and myself who know the arc of her life.

The sky looked gloomy today, it was the second day of the event to welcome new students. Raindrops begin to wet the streets. My feet rushed down from the motorcycle taxi to the terrace of the campus yard. I saw a woman standing with her hands around her waist watching me. The voice was familiar to me. She asked me various kinds of questions and I ignored her ramblings. It was as if the waves were crashing through the coral, the sand was getting lost in the waves, and the sky was also crashing with the roar of the sound accompanied by her babbling which was getting more melodious like a bird that was forced to be locked up in its cage. Finally, I couldn't deny it, so I answered. The essence of her rambling was 'What was wrong with me? Why did I seem silent and even ignorant to her?' And I explained that 'I was fine'. She was again evasive and asked for a real answer. Finally, my tissue-thin patience was divided in two. I, too, explained with a little anger. "You should introspect yourself Ajeng!" You were the one who left me yesterday and ignored me because you got a new friend. Do I look trivial in front of you? Ajeng was silent for a thousand languages hearing the rampant thunder. The committee also told us to enter the auditorium. I was just venting because before I could only keep quiet. And now on the contrary she looks silent and I don't know whether she will think of apologizing to me or not. For now, I just focus on the event that is being held. My little heart said, "I don't care about her".

Heal The Mind

 The roar of the sky stirs the soul

Gray-black becomes its colorful

A gust of wind penetrates the soul

Feeling the chill in an empty heartful

The dragging of the waves is increasingly pounding

Crashing between the reefs that are lost

The water soaks the tips of the toes

Feeling the transience of the true world

I'm getting more silent about all the realities of truth

Until I don't know how I can go

Loudly, heard I can't grasp

Increasingly creasing the face of denial

The breeze with its storm

Lift all the holes of his sins

When it was gone...

All creatures who breathe its freshness

One day will be faced with a combination

Become a witness to its muted mouth situation

The Influence of Psychology on Mental Health

Mental health is a criterion of the disease that we must truly guard, connected to the soul, the mind to the feelings of a person, like Anxiety disorder, mood disorder, schizophrenia, psychotic disorder, control impulses, eating disorder, obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD), personality, syndrome Tourette, psychosomatic, factitious, dissociative, post-traumatic stress (PTSD), depression, attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD). When our mental health isn't in the best state, let us have a break. If we don't have the strength to socialize, don't. If we struggle to eat and sleep, it's ok, to rest, recover and be patient with ourselves as we're healing. However, these times are temporary, and remember that our mental health should be a priority. 

The quarter-life crisis is a higher period, in which we are asked to be our running human, whether or not we are all we have to start this period. Faced with multiple choices to deal with growth in the growing process. As a company starts up a job struggling for change, pioneering from zero struggle, to thrive is the first step forward. Moreover, this period applies to every human, it's about 20 to 25 years old. Faced with the many questions that we either have the basis for logic in answering. Think rationally so as not to be insulting to one another, respectful, and affectionate. 

Some of the things we need to observe in this period are 'Psychological well-being' and 'Self-efficacy';

1. Psychologic Well Being is about the psychological picture of our health, of the way and pattern of our thinking and opinion, of controlling our emotions, and also harboring all feelings concerning the mind and heart.

2. Self-efficacy is about having confidence in ourselves, based on our ability to control the situation.

No doubt, everyone is wondering how we can enter into a new life, which is so scary. It's like 'Could I?' It was all very normal and was in the conference in the period 'quarter life crisis. And this period is running at normal because every soul is experiencing this. Of how the people closest to us, our point of view, and much more. And to all of us who are experiencing it, happening right now, may we be given the patience and capacity to balance thought and feeling. A crucial solution is' never be afraid ', try to convince yourself, and opening the circle of positive vibes is certainly like blending into a balanced world.

Finally, the simple thing we can do for prevention is to remove ourselves from shit that continually triggers our mental health and hurts our hearts is top-tier self-care. Be friends with people who care about you and your mental health. Psychology says, limiting your contact with those who are no good for your mental health is self-care. Not out of pride, but we must give priority to goodness, to our own mental and physical health. Improving our mental health, like; trust in ourselves, staying positive, stopping overthinking, working hard, being teachable, being humble, being a friend, believing in ourselves, vibe alone, prioritizing, and most importantly enjoying life. The older you get, the more you care about your peace than winning an argument or proving a point always remember to make your mental health, happiness, healing, and goals, and make yourself a priority.

All things considered, mental health isn't in the best state. It is a criterion of the disease that we must truly guard, connected to the soul, the mind to the feelings of a person, like anxiety disorder, mood disorder, etc. let us have a break if we don't have the strength to socialize, don't. If we struggle to eat and sleep, it's ok, to rest, recover and be patient with ourselves as we're healing. Be friends with people who care about you and your mental health. Remember that our mental health should be a priority.